It’s Been a While *Dusts off Blog*

So it’s been a while huh? I’ve sadly neglected this blog, but I swear I’ll be more active from now on.

There have been some big changes for me, both in real life and in game. So I’d better explain.

I now work full time at the pub. Which is great, but for now at least I’m working Monday, Wednesday and Thursday evenings until close. As Enthusiams raiding nights are Monday, Thursday and Friday I had to make the hard decision to change to another guild, one that had raiding times more suited to my hours. So I am now a raiding member of Oops Wrong Button on Bronze Dragonflight EU. I’m also playing a Beast Mastery Hunter as my main now. I still have characters in Enthusiasm, and I will be dropping in to visit ALOT. I cried when I left, much to G’s bemusement, not being an online gamer like myself he didn’t quite get why I was upset.

Another change in my life is me and G get married in May. So much to plan, when I think I’ve got it all sorted something else comes up, and I had a disaster with ordering my dress online (the ‘UK’ company turned out to be a Chinese shop selling knock offs of other people’s designs, they even stole photos for the original websites), but I got my money back in the end and its all back on track. G’s outfit cost more than mine! But I am geeking out to the max in one respect. I am turning up to my wedding in a DeLorean. That’s the Back to the Future car for those who don’t know. Hey, what can I say, I have love those movies since I was a little kid! I’ve always wanted to ride in a DeLorean and now I am!

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Anyway, I am at work so better be getting on with things. I’ll be designing a new banner reflecting the new changes for my blog later.

The Many Faces of Morrigu

Not much gaming has been happening at my end.  I’ve been a busy little barmaid, and find that I am too tired to do much more than sleep when I get home!  But I was looking at a couple of recent photo’s taken of me, and was struck by the differences between activities in them, which just shows how odd and varied my life can be sometimes!

The first picture was taken during a caving trip run by Yorkshire Dales Guides down a cave called Long Churn, not far from where I live.  So here is me in a fetching red caving suit and helmet.

It was a little bit of a squeeze :)

The next photo was taken this weekend.  It was Ingleton 1940’s Weekend, and well, I had to dress up for work.  Never let it be said when Morrigu does something she does a half assed job of it!

I very rarely wear dresses, so to me this is a big deal! And I have to admit I cheated and got a hairdresser to do the hair.

So yeah, just goes to show the weird stuff I fill my time with :P

 

Alive, But No Kicking Today Folks!

I did it! I completed the 12 mile challenge!

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Graham and I finished it in 5 hours 22 minutes, and whilst I’m not sure about the fastest and the slowest times, I’m happy with that. I’m not that fit, I’m overweight, I have knee problems and yeah, ok, I spend too much time on World of Warcraft (and Kingdoms of Amalur: Reckoning, but that’s a whole new post). But I did it! And no epic mount was involved :) The walk was over moorland and trails in the Yorkshire Dales so it was steep in places, but it was enjoyable. And the weather was lovely. I even overcame certain hang ups when I had to find a convenient wall to duck behind…

I won’t lie. Yes, I may have over done things. I was fine until the last few miles, and maybe I should have admitted my limits, but I am a stubborn old boot sometimes and wanted to prove I could do this. As a result my knees are swollen, my right hip is painful and I have a blister the size of a 10p piece on my right foot just behind the ties (about a bit less than an inch for non Brit-Landers). I’m hoping a hot bath and an early night will help, as I have work tomorrow. Yeah, I only took one day off. Oops.

G, of course, being skinny and fitter has nary a twinge, but I won’t hate him too much for that.

But screw the pain! I have raised £55 for a good cause (so far), and have proven something to myself (that I’m either strong mentally or I’m batshit, I’m swinging towards the latter).

And I have a medal. Booyah.

Alive and Kicking!

Just a quick update. I survived my holiday on the Isle of Man, came back with a new tattoo and am now gearing up for the Cave Rescue Organisation 12 Mile Challenge on Saturday. I’m still not convinced I won’t die, but never mind, don’t know til you try!

Anyway, I’ve decided to put a link to my Just Giving page here. Yes, that is my real name, but I’ve not got anything to fear or hide, and I’ll remove the link after Saturday.

Morrigu’s Just Giving Page

I’m not going to force any of you to sponsor me, but if anyone does the CRO does a lot of good for many people and they depend on donations.

Anyway, wish me luck!

Operation: Easter Snake

I’ve been a wee bit quiet, and have fallen behind in the whole 20 Days of WoW thing, but it’s been a bit mad, combined with mild burnout. And an Easter surprise I really didn’t expect.

Well, the Easter surprise will explain the title so I’ll talk about that first. As some may know I’m a Crazy Snake Lady. I have three pet snakes: Two Corn Snakes and a Western Hognose. Well, I had noticed over the last few weeks my bigger Corn Snake looked a bit chubby, but it was a total surprise when it laid 12 eggs yesterday. One sadly was bad but the rest seem fertile, and after ascertaining I will be able to find a home for them, I’m now incubating the rest. So Morrigu is gonna be a Grandma, if all goes according to plan anyway. It may not happen yet, hatching eggs isn’t easy, but here is hoping. Takes about 60 days, which means they should hatch around my birthday in June.

So yeah, burnout… I still enjoy raiding DS but most of the other stuff doesn’t interest me. I’m having fun levelling Pinkamena as I have mogging plans for her, but other than that, it’s all a bit ‘meh’.

So what else am I doing? Well, a friend of mine has convinced me to give SW:TOR a try again, and I have found myself messing around on Everquest 2 again, despite the fact I never get passed level 30 before cancelling my sub.

Roll on MoP I guess…

Serving Beer Makes Me Feel Oddly Creative.

When I was a teenager I loved to draw. I spent most of my lunch breaks at school drawing, mostly copying pictures from anime and comics, but that helped me get a basic knowledge of what to do and I did my own stuff too. I also used to write stories, though no one was EVER allowed to read them. Then between the ages of 17 and 20 something happened I’d rather not talk about and I pretty much stopped all that. I guess I got out of practice, and was far too critical of myself and found the antidepressants I was on made my hands tremble, so I stopped drawing all together. And that’s kind of been a theme. Same with the digital photo manipulation, my life went haywire for a while and I’ve found it hard to get started again.

Then I started working behind the bar at work. It’s amazing what serving beer can do for you! For the first time in years I feel creative.

Firstly I have found a new self confidence. I never would have seen myself in a job so closely interacting with people a few years back. I haven’t mastered the art of small talk yet, but I find myself chatting to strangers, something that used to terrify me. Finally people are not scary! Well, yes, they are but I can ignore it and deal with them anyway.

And I’m guessing the new self confidence has awakened the creative part of me again. I have an idea for a story bouncing round my head, that I came up with on a very slow shift whilst washing glasses. It revolves around a pub, and is probably a bit Ashes to Ashes meets Neil Gaiman, but I may just write it. I’d go into details but I’m always worried if it IS a good idea someone will pinch it before I do something with it :)

And I want to draw! And photomanip! And oh my gosh I’ve not felt like this in years…

Now I just have to find the time.

Gender Stereotypes and Your Not So Average Tom Boy

I was lying in bed this morning reading some MMO Melting Pot articles when one got me thinking. Or rather one of the posts linked did, by Mataoka, and what she said about being a Tom Boy AND a girly girl.

Let me show you my last two purchases.

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And

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So a computer game and a handbag. Pretty much sums up my life.

From a young age I was a bit of a Tom Boy. I hated wearing skirts, and would tramp up and down the local countryside with two of my best friends, who were both boys (one of whom was G, who I’m now marrying), climbing trees and getting covered in mud exploring. But at the same time I loved My Little Pony, and would play with them for hours with another of my best friends, a girl.

Fast forward to now and it’s pretty much the same. I love computer games, and horror movies, and caving, and I loathe Sex and the City and Desperate Housewives, give me Supernatural or CSI any day. But I also love pretty jewellery, I own far too many handbags, I like expensive perfume, I buy dresses and I still love My Little Pony. All mixed in with the Goth stuff, but that’s not relevant to this post.

I’ve had my fair share if being judged by men for being a girl and playing computer games. But that’s been written about a few times. I’m going to write about the other side of things.

Being judged negatively by other women for liking ‘manly’ things. Because other women can be just as sexist as men.

Now don’t get me wrong, this isn’t the case with every single woman out there. I have female friends quite accepting of my Tom Boy side. And not all of them are Tom Boys themselves!

But I’ve had women sneer at me for liking computer games. I’ve been calling a “f***ing lesbian” because of it, and accused of being a slut because the only reason I show interest in games is to get men to like me. More often though I am judged not worthy of attention by them though, or someone to be humoured. This is usually by women I’ve worked with, though relatives and friends of friends have reacted the same way. And in a few, thankfully rare, cases, it’s come from total strangers.

One example: At an old workplace I turned up at a get together in a dress. I’d really made an effort, it was a special ‘do’, and I got quite a few compliments. And then a condescending comment of “Oh, you’ve tried so hard to be normal! You look great!” from a female coworker. Kind of ruined the night.

And it’s been the same in most places I have worked, because I like things perceived to be ‘male’, my interest in things ‘female’ is treated as a thing of ridicule by some. Sexist? Damn straight it is.

What hope do women have for equality if women themselves enforce gender stereotypes? Why CAN’T a woman like gaming without being feminine as well? Why does one aspect of our lives prejudice others against us in this day and age?

“A woman can be whatever she wants” shouldn’t be followed with “But she’s a weirdo if she’s _______”.

So sadly, in some way men and women are equal. Equally ignorant.

When I have kids, the will be free to be whoever they chose with my full support. That’s a promise.